Finding Answers
Hello,
Well I’ve been feeling very lost lately, for months in fact. Knowing that I have a purpose in this life, yet not being able to figure out exactly what it is. I know it’s all tied up with releasing weight and allowing my body to find it’s own place of perfection. But I haven’t been able to overcome all the old patters, habits and thinking that has gotten me to where I am, the heaviest I’ve ever been in my life. Even with years of Abraham-Hicks behind me, I haven’t been able to simply “think” my way to allowing my perfect body to happen. I feel like so many people who sit in the hot seat at an Abraham-Hicks seminar and say the teachings have helped them in every aspect of their lives except releasing weight. I’ve learned allot, and I’ve experienced periods of success, but I haven’t been able to stay focused and truly change my thinking and therefore my life permanently.
I’ve been at a crossroads lately, praying for inspiration, motivation and guidance. Asking Source for direction to the answers I need to get back into the allowing flow of eating healthy, of feeling powerful and in control of my life, and back on track, or rather, and better, to find a new track.
Then one quiet afternoon, my sister mentioned something to me that instantly gave me hope. She told me she had been to a Psychic Fair and met a man who gave her and my nephew readings about their past lives. She said the man was incredible and he’s also a hypnotist. As she talked about how wonderful he had been, a realization grew in my soul. I knew to the core of my being, here was one of the answers I'd been asking for, Source was coming through. I immediately made my first appointment. That was about a month ago, and seeing him over the last few weeks has been truly amazing.
How I think about myself, about my past, about releasing weight, and about my own power to create my life has begun to change, from the inside out. In the past, even when I was in the powerful, allowing flow of eating healthy, I always felt like there was a battle going on inside me. The huge conscious part of me was feeling so strong, so determined to do the things I needed to do to release the weight. Yet, inside me was a struggle of mythic proportions, my subconscious battling me at every turn, waiting patiently but forcefully for the opportunity to turn me back toward the path that has gotten me here.
I’ve been experiencing this internal battle all my life, and it’s the reason I’ve never succeeded at permanently releasing the weight. Many times I’ve been able to release 25, 50 even 100 pounds in my life, but I’ve never been able to stay focused long enough to sustain the weight release or to change my thinking permanently. I’ve never been able to quiet that ongoing battle or to conquer the loud and incessant voice of my subconscious.
Abraham has always said that if we dwell on the past, we’re doomed to repeat it, they often say if we can turn away from the past and are successful at releasing it completely, we will be free from it. I understand what Abraham says, and I know for some it is that simple. I know that it could be that simple for all of us. However, I’ve learned lately that for me (and maybe lots of others, maybe for those who sit in the hot seat and ask why) the key is the part about “releasing it completely”. I think that’s the tricky part. That’s the part that has made it not as simple or easy as Abraham says it could be. Or rather not as simple and easy as I’ve wanted it to be.
What I found out is that for me, in order to quiet that ongoing battle for control with my subconscious I needed help. I needed to understand the power my subconscious has had over me. I had to face the feelings behind the experiences in my past which not only brought me to where I am today, but which my subconscious uses to keep me imprisoned. I needed to see the past for what it truly is, just a string of experiences I’ve created, for a multitude of reasons. None of which are valid today, or were ever really valid for that matter. They are simply experiences I attracted to allow my soul’s desire for expansion and growth. I needed to truly accept that the past is over, and those experiences have no power except that which I give them today. Counseling and hypnosis are allowing me to see that. They are providing the key, the “releasing it completely” key.
Through looking at some of my past lives, I’ve received a few new visions of myself being so much more than what I have seen and felt in this life alone. I’ve gotten a bigger more overall view of myself. The battle in me is subsiding and I don’t feel I’m constantly at odds with the voice inside my head as much anymore.
I also love watching the Universe orchestrate the events that happen in my life. I love how when I’m open and ready to allow it, I see the evidence of things, people, situations which have already been lined up to answer the questions or fulfill the desires of my heart.
Not long after starting with the hypnotist, I recorded an episode of Oprah, it took me a couple of weeks to finally watch it, but when I did, I felt exactly the same way as Oprah said she felt. By the end of the hour I knew I had found another huge answer in my life. The episode was titled “Why Oprah Says She’ll Never Diet Again!” and it featured a woman whose books I’ve been reading for years, Geneen Roth. She has a new book, Women Food and God, and it’s truly, truly amazing. It tells us we can free ourselves from food obsession by knowing who we are, and that our “Relentless attempts to be thin take you father and farther away from what could actually end your suffering: getting back in touch with who you really are.”. She talks about how the deepest answers of our can be found woven within our biggest issue. That the key to living happy, vibrant, healthy lives reside within the secrets held in our obsession about food. She leads us to face and embrace the feelings that have been sending us into a bag of potato chips, or a half gallon of ice cream, and to come out on the other side of them. Finally becoming aware and therefore powerful and free.
I’m only halfway through the book, but I honestly can’t wait to finish it just so I can start over and reread it again. I can see so clearly how the hypnosis, counseling and principles of the book are working together to lead me to the answers of my life.
And while I’m not in the place of rampant enthusiasm I had a couple of years ago about obtaining my Heart’s Desire to release the weight, I have gained a peacefulness with my own thinking that is new, and I feel my enthusiasm building again. Only this time it feels like something tangible, something I can trust, and use to change my life.
I can feel this really is a turning point in my life. I will not go up anymore, and I have promised myself I will do whatever it takes to allow my answers, to stay focused, and continue forward on the path to letting go of all the extra weight on my body and allowing it to find it’s own place of perfection. I've lost 11 pounds in the last couple of weeks, again, (I think this is probably the 150th time I've lost that same 11 pounds). But who cares, it's gone!
I’m glad you are here, along for this ride.
Much Love,
Tigerlily
Categories: My Amazing Life - My Amazing Adventure
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I can really relate. I have gained 33lbs after attaining a goal weight of 115lbs. It happened when I wasn't paying attention. I was working with a Sponsor and I decided to not allow my negative thinking to infect my relationship with her. I watched my thoughts and if they were negative in nature I'd stop them midstream. I had a strong motivation to do this but did not realize how far reaching the affect would be. That miracle year 2006 I reached a weight I had been trying to achieve for 30 years. A large one-bedroom apartment for less than $1000 rent in a nice neighborhood showed up. The exact car I wanted with a price tag I could afford appeared. All of this happened because I was focused on keeping my thoughts light. I have not been able to replicate that year. I have been focused on controling outward conditions rather then on my thoughts. Recently I have had an awareness that I like to problem-solve and spend a lot of my thinking doing that. Last week everytime I caught myself thinking about a problem I'd remind myself not to do that. I found that at first I felt sort of empty and unsure. Now I'm feeling lighthearted and carefree and I've lost 5 lbs. I am not sure if there is a connection between my change in thinking and the weightloss. I think there is and I am going to continue to watch my thoughts.
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I so appreciate you taking the time to comment. First let me say congratulations on reaching your goal weight of 115 in the first place! That's wonderful. Personally, I would think of gaining the 33lbs back as an opportunity to "fine tune" my life. Those pounds are your teachers, and they wouldn't have come back on your body if they didn't carry an important less for you. Once you've learned it, (as the recent 5 lbs have proved you have) their purpose will have been fulfilled and they will melt away.
I can assure you, it is ALL about your thinking. What we think, we create. You've learned about the Law Of Attraction and you put it to work in your life. Which is why everything fell into place so easily and naturally in 2006. That must have been wonderful. In fact you can use the memories of how you felt as you succeeded that year to help you continue to focus on keeping your thoughts light now.
The Law Of Attraction really is as simple as what you think about, you attract. We really don't have any control over outward conditions in our lives, and focusing on what we can't control and never will is fruitless. But focusing on what we do have control over, our thinking, is the key to allowing everything we want in life to beautifully, easily and continuously flow to us.
I'm really proud of you for coming to this pivital understanding in life, and I'm sure if you keep your thinking positive and light, you'll accomplish anything your heart desires!
Much love for you, Tigerlily
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I used to get hung up on Abe saying we didn't have to go to the past to make changes or move on, but then I heard them saying that if the same issue/feeling keeps coming up, you need to deal with it. That means finding out why you feel that way for most of us. I agree you don't absolutely have to dig in the past, but very often, when you understand where a belief or attitude came from, it's easy to release. It's easier to actually see/understand that whatever happened "then" is not now. The problem is that most people dwell on it and have to tell everyone instead of letting it go. Sexual abuse for instance - why keep talking about it like it happened now? Because the person continues to feel like it is happening now until they come to terms with it (into alignment). Keep asking and keep receiving....you're getting there!
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I agree completely. I've had a few points with Abe that have hung me up. Sometimes they make everything sound so simple that I end up feeling like there's something wrong with me, but I just keep listening and they will eventually come back to the subject I'm hung up over and then say something that answers my questions. I think the big thing is what you said about "the person continues to feel like it is happening now". I'm learning through hypnosis that the past is only "real" now if I give it power today. Geneen Roth says basically the same thing in Women Food and God. That it's important to face and embrace the feelings attached to our memories so we dissolve their power in our lives today.
Thanks so much for taking the time to write. I truly appreciate your comments and advice.
Much love, Tigerlily
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Hi Tigerlily!
What a great blog you have here! And congratulations on the 11 lbs gone! I have been reading a few of your comments and you have such insight!! I especially like when you said to gina that the weight she had regained had come back for a reason! I think if we look at everything that happens to us we see (good/ bad)we see that there is a reason! Also reflecting on the past so much is not a positive thing...even when we fixate on good things that happened to us we do not allow new good things to move into our lives. I have been working with a therapist for a few years who has a very different approach to psychotherapy. Upon my first visit his first comment was "If you want to talk about your past I'm not the doctor for you" That may sound harsh but true. His experience was that so many patients had spent years rehashing the past events of their lives and had never allowed themselves to move on!!
So he felt that if I wanted results I must look forward, yes sometimes we talk about the past but only for the insight it might offer me to plan my future.
You mention about Abrahams teaching not being easy or simple. Like many things of great elegance they are very simple but NOT easy. The teachings of Louise L Hayes are the same and your beloved Geneen Roth (BTW is she not the best, I am blown away by her new book and yes, read it many, many times!))
I think in our modern lives we lose touch with the idea that simplicity and easy are not the same thing. Simple means not complicated. I have spent a long time thinking about this and have found that it is very true.
Nothing is more simple than the idea of staying in the flow in the moment allowing the Universe to guide you (read Martha Beck's Steering By Starlight)but as you have pointed out not easy...
I lost 40 lbs 3 years ago and have started to notice it creeping back on...
I am going to examine the reasons why it is coming back and what lesson to I need to repeat..maybe getting back into regular exercise??haha! Simple right? Easy?Nooo. but that's where I need to change my thoughts (It easy for me to fit regular exercise into my life, life gives me the tools I need to do this..)Hey, that is why I have a new puppy!!!It's not just so I can clean up all the pee....o.k. now I get it!!
Well you get the idea...
Again thank you for this site, I will visit often and keep you posted on my success and you keep us posted too!
Bonne chance ma belle
Bonne journée
Jovart
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Thanks so much for taking the time to comment Jovart, I sincerely appreciate it. You're so right about everything you said, especially the past being important and not important at the same time. It's so true the most important thing about our past are what insights we can take from it to build our futures. And you are so on target with simple and easy being two vastly different things. (I reserved a copy of Steering by Starlight from my local library, can't wait for the call that it's ready to be picked up!)
I do know that there are always reasons for weight to creep back on, and rarely is it something outside of our minds. I find while increasing physical activity can bolster releasing weight, gaining it back is usually related to my thinking or something I need to understand about myself. Congrats on the 40 pound weight loss and the new puppy! They are so much fun!
Thanks again for writing, please stay in touch and let me know how you are doing!
Much love,
Tigerlily
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