Hello Again,

I’m not sure if there’s anyone left out there anymore reading this, but if so, I’m back. 

It’s been almost a year since my last entry.  The year has been full, and so have I.  After the surgery to remove the cyst, I attracted every pound I released right back to me.  However the great news is, while it took me 3 months to release it, it took almost a full year to attract it back.  I can live with that. 

Looking back I see clearly why I attracted the weight back to me.  The only way I ever learned to comfort myself is with food, and this past year has been one of necessary self comforting for me.  I was shaken physically and emotionally much more by the surgery than I admitted or realized and I slipped back so easily into old patterns of eating, thinking and allowing mindlessness. 

Spirituality for me is like the ocean tides, some times it’s easy for me to keep my focus and live magically.  Other times I have to work at it, as if the tides are out and I have to make the effort to remember who I am, what I believe and the truth of life.  But this year has been a new experience for me, I haven’t felt anything like it since I started on my Spiritual path, I haven’t felt this . . . well . . . lost before.

I can’t fully explain where I’ve been, how I’ve been feeling or what my thinking has been, and as an Aber, I realize that dwelling on those things isn’t a good idea anyway.  The closest to describing it is I simply felt lost.  There was no true intention behind my actions, only following my ego and allowing myself to do whatever it took to make myself feel “better”.  Even though I never seemed to get to the feeling of better, only a feeling of more, more, more.  That endless craving to fill the void.

For those of you familiar with Abraham-Hicks Emotional Scale, (I’ve created a separate entry for it, see Abraham-Hicks The Emotional Scale) I usually live in the top seven emotions and rarely dip to 8 or below.  But this past year I’ve been dwelling between 7 and 16.  Never truly upset, just numbly going from mild contentment to feelings of discouragement.  

I’ve been an Aber long enough though that I don’t feel bad about this past year.  I realize it had it’s purpose.  I appreciate where I was much more because of it.  I have a much more clear picture of what it means to follow my Heart’s Desire.  I have a much deeper appreciation of the path I was on and how important it truly is to me.  I feel so much love for this blog and how connected it is to be releasing weight and creating the life I want to be living.

It’s amazing to me the strength I feel, flowing in through my fingers as I type these words.  As if my connection to Source, the Angels and the Universe is circling through me, my fingers on the keyboard, the internet, each of you, the Universe and back to me.  And with each wave, I feel stronger and stronger in my determination and resolve to Allow My Perfect Body to blossom.

I guess I had to loose a bit of my connection in order to genuinely appreciate how unimaginatively wonderful it is to feel connected again.

A few days ago I ordered Abraham-Hicks Think and Get Slim CD and I can’t wait till I receive it and can listen to Esther and Abraham talk specifically about the subject that is closest to my heart.  I can’t wait to blog about it too.

So if you are still with me, or new to my blog, I again invite you to join me on this exciting adventure of mine.  I’m back on track, I’m starting from square one and I know in my heart that I can create my life exactly as I want it to be, because I will never give up.  I can allow my body to find it’s perfect place of personal balance.  For today, I know the first step on any path is always appreciation.

So . . . I’m so grateful to have this blog to record it all.  And I'm truly grateful for anyone out there reading it and sharing the journey with me. 

Much love,
Tigerlily