Shortly after my visit with my non-physical family and Ann Albers (http://www.visionsofheaven.com) I started reading and studying the amazing book from Sonia Choquette called (Your Heart's Desire: Instructions for Creating the Life You Really Want) which Ann mentioned in my reading. 

It’s a wonderfully practical, step by step program for spiritually creating our deepest desires into our physical reality.  I also have the audio program and honestly I don’t know which one is better.  I sincerely recommend them both.  I listened to the CDs each morning and evening on my drive to and from work for two weeks and then I sat down with the book and went over the parts I really wanted to clarify. 

I think the most important thing I got out of it was realizing that my truest heart’s desire is, and has always been, to release my extra pounds and find my perfect place of body size and weight.  It’s pretty much pivotal to every other desire of my life and has been from the time I was a toddler.  I always wanted it more than anything else, but I never believed I could do it so I never thought of it as an obtainable heart’s desire.

Yet it took me some time to actually realize it was my biggest desire and that surprised me.  Why would it not be obvious to me?

Sonia made pointed out it’s because I always felt powerless to do it in the past.  Like somehow it was the one thing, the only thing I couldn’t actually create for myself.   I had learned as a young girl if you don’t believe you can create it . . . don’t bother desiring it, don’t get your hopes up.

Her program made me look at it from a different angle.  She said to take the “Can I do it?  Is it possible in my life?” out of the equation.  Ask myself not if I could do it, but only how important is it to me . . . how much do I want it. 

She made me realize that desires aren’t based on probability or even possibility, they are simply desires.  She says to asks ourselves the question “What is my heart’s desire?” 

Which translated for me into: .  “Is being slender, healthy, vibrant and free truly my heart’s desire?”   When I asked myself that simple question, the answer too was simple . . . it always has been simple.

Yes . . . my heart’s desire is to embrace once and for all this aspect of my life.  To do whatever is necessary to allow it to manifest physically for me.  To experience whatever adventure is in it for me, and to put it behind me once and for all and move on to other adventures.  It is also to share my adventure and what I learn from it along the way with other enlightened people who want answers too.  Those thoughts stirred my soul in ways I can’t put into words. 

Sonia taught me to respect my desire simply for belonging to me, for being mine.  Not to judge their feasibility or the degree of effort, and not to think about how long it might take, but to embrace them, respect them, celebrate them and begin the process of nurturing and creating them. 

With that understanding came a huge change in my perspective.  I started seeing Allowing My Perfect Body as my passion, my purpose, not my curse.  I started allowing the possibility that for me, this issue isn’t an issue at all, but a blessing.  A huge blessing holding many, many layers of blessings within it’s depths.  I started thinking about sharing it with other people facing the same confusion and frustration and suddenly the feelings as well as the words started pouring out of me again.  And that release feels so good.   

Sonia’s program gives practical step by step instructions, which are easy to follow and fun to do.  It showed me how to take the focus off of food, eating and exercise and put it instead on the aspect of spiritually creating it. 

It took my understanding of LOA as I learned from Abraham-Hicks to the next level, finding the feeling place of my desire.  Up until this point that had been something to aspire to, but nothing I could actually hold on to for any length of time.  With my new perspective I began to feel the joy, the fun, the delightful expectation of being in control of this most important aspect of my life.

And those feelings have stayed with me, firmly, as if carved in stone.  For the first time in my life I don’t have that feeling of “yes, I’m motivated now and it feels good, but how do I hold on to it and keep myself motivated”. 

It’s because I’m not particularly motivated, but I am completely inspired.  And there’s a huge, huge difference between those two positions.  Motivation comes from not wanting any more of what is, inspiration comes from knowing I have the power to change whatever is into whatever I want it to be.

Recognizing that the biggest, most enduring and deepest felt desire of my life is to forever be free of what I’ve always considered a burden . . . and in fact embrace it as my own personal adventure and learning/expansion/growth adventure . . .  has freed me up to see the beauty and potential of it. 

We would focus on everything that mattered to us. It is so satisfying to hold a thought and to find the feeling place and then see the Universe conspire to help you receive it. Oh, co-creation at its best.  Excerpted from an Abraham-Hicks workshop in Chicago, IL on Sunday, November 1st, 1998  (Abraham-Hicks.com)
 
I realize there are hidden gems of awareness in it for me.  There are lessons in strength, in outlook and in self awareness that I can’t begin to comprehend.  It simply makes sense that something that has so long been a part of my life, a considered negative . . . would hold the keys to unlocking my biggest dreams.

And I am ready to find those keys, to enjoy the process and every moment of my greatest life adventure.

I hope you come along with me.

Much love,
Tigerlily